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[anneford]

UPDATE:

fuck it. Went to meet with coworkers, had a bit of trouble finding them, but was otherwise fine. And now I don't feel so bad anymore. Got another call from my Aunt, apparently he already had his court date for his DUI and was supposed to be under house arrest. For some unknown reason, he went out of bounds (I don't know what those bounds were) so the fuzz picked him up and he may or may not be spending the last 5 days of his house arrest in actual jail? We still don't really know much.

If I think about it too much or too hard, I get sad/pissed/scared again, but for now I'm content with "FUCK IT."

There's a stupid little nagging voice in my mind saying "maybe if you called this wouldn't have happened."

FUCK IT.

He's an idiot. That is not my fault. I know this. Shut up, naggy voice, I don't want to hear it from you.

FUCK.
IT.

Comments

[nanaki-muyo.livejournal.com]

Just keep telling that nagging voice to shut the hell up until it actually does. Having my mother be a full-blown alcoholic for nearly nine years, I can tell you that even living with your father and being around him all day long wouldn't be enough to keep him from drinking and doing something stupid. When he gets the urge to drink, nothing short of locking him in a closet is going to stop him from finding a way to do so.

tl;dr don't beat yourself up over it, your dad is an idiot.

[maltaechoriel.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry, anne :( *hugs*